I’m a procrastinator by nature. I’m not sure why I procrastinate so much; I’m well aware that I usually feel happier, and more accomplished, when I just get things done. But even still, I push off unpleasant tasks until the very last minute. Knowing that I’m prone to procrastination, there are times when I’m not sure if the reason I have for not doing something is valid, or if I’m just making excuses. Which is where I’m at on the job search.
It’s been two months since I wrote about my boss telling me she had an issue with my relationship with my boyfriend. Actually, yelling at me that it was completely inappropriate is more accurate. At the time, I was furious. The whole situation still makes my blood boil. And yet, here I am, no closer to a new job now than I was then. At the time, I felt determined to throw myself in to searching for a new job. I put the word out that I was looking for a new job. I put my resume on a few job boards. And then, my efforts kind of faded away. In March I wrote a couple of posts about how much I hate job searching (here and here). I don’t think anyone really enjoys searching for a new job. I’ve had a few people contact me about my resume, but it hasn’t led to anything.
Like most people, there’s a lot going on in my life. I have to set priorities on where I’m going to spend my time. Yes, finding a new job is important, and I need to not become complacent about it. But, for the most part, things at work have returned to normal. Actually, once the dust settled from her blow-up, my boss returned to how she acted when she first found out the boyfriend and I were dating: She kept trying to ask a bunch of questions, digging for information about the boyfriend’s personal life. And, as usual, I was polite, but didn’t give any answers. There were a lot of “I really don’t know” and “That’s not something we discuss” answers, which I’m sure left her even more curious about how we’ve been dating almost two years, but apparently never discuss anything. Let her wonder; what I do and don’t know about my boyfriend is really none of her business.
The point being, even if my boss decides to have another blow-up, it isn’t like I’m going to get fired. So, for now, I feel like my time is better spent getting the house ready to be put on the market. Job searching is time consuming. And every hour spent on searching for a job is an hour I can’t spend on the house. Between the mortgage, and utilities, and the extra money for remodeling and repairs, the house is sucking up a lot of unnecessary money every day that I own it. Having this job also allows me the flexibility I’m going to need in the upcoming months. I can leave work to meet the contractor. I can take days off to get things done, or for closing. I still have over 20 days of paid leave available. True, 15 of those days are eligible to be paid out when I leave the job. But when you’re starting a new job isn’t exactly the opportune time to be asking for time off.
Right now it makes sense to me to stay at this job, at least until I get the house on the market. But the procrastinator in me has to question whether that really is the reason. Maybe I’m afraid that I won’t be able to find a better job? I worry about being able to replace the great benefits I have now. Maybe I just don’t want to put in the hard work of a job search? Maybe I’m just making excuses to put this off?
What do you think? Is putting off the job search to work on the house a valid reason? Or does it sound like I’m just making excuses to keep procrastinating? What would you do?
– Cindy W.