I Want

Like most people, I have wants. There are lots of things I want, for any variety of reasons. Right now, I want something that my 20 year old self would smack me for even considering: I want an iPad.

Okay, granted, iPads weren’t even a glitter in Apple’s eye when I was 20. But the idea that I would ever actually want to own an Apple product?!? Ridiculous! My feelings on Apple products weren’t just some unfounded PC bias. I went to college in the late 90’s, back when Adobe software was Mac only. As a Graphic Design student, I spent a large amount of time working on Macs. Add to that, during my senior year of college a wealthy alumni donated a large chunk of money to create a new Mac computer lab in the library. And I was the lucky student in charge of said lab.

It was back in the day when the All-In-One G3’s were all the rage. Yes, they were pretty. And colorful. And, back in the day of big desktops with loads of cords and accessories, they were sleek and minimal. And they were a huge pain in my ass!

I spent hour after hour, week after week toiling in that lab, keeping the computers running smoothly and communicating seamlessly. But we frequently suffered what was commonly known as the “click of death”. You’d hear the repetitive clicking noise somewhere in the lab, and panic would set in as you searched out the infected machine. Click, click, click. It was the sound of a computer “eating” its own hard drive. Click, click, click. Try as we might, we couldn’t find a cure, or a prevention. We contacted Apple. We researched. We asked around. Click, click, click. Machine after machine turned into a useless, pretty box.

Click, click, click.

As a PC user, I’m used to Windows-based programs. I can concede that for beginners, Macs seem more intuitive, and therefore easier to learn. But, if you’re used to a PC, using a Mac can be an exercise in frustration. Every time I use my Mom’s iMac, I find myself getting frustrated and looking like a complete imbecile. Why can’t I this? Where’s that? How do I…? Grrr!

My hate for Apple products has extended more than a decade. And now, suddenly, I find myself wanting one. In all honesty, I want a laptop, but I can’t justify spending that type of money. Apple products are expensive! I think an iPad would suit my needs. I think…

No, it isn’t the sleek, pretty design that has me lusting after a Mac; It’s my current frustration with Windows-based products! I started with a desktop PC, which suffered a horrible death by virus. Ridding the poor thing of the virus would have cost more than a new laptop. So, I bought a laptop. It was a Dell, not top of the line, but a little higher end. At that time, the upgrade was required in order to run the Adobe design programs. It wasn’t too many years later though that I started having issues with it charging. It was almost as though the power adapter no longer fit. I tried purchasing a new one, but no luck. I’ve heard this is a common problem with Dells, although they deny it. A laptop that won’t charge is useless. So, less than 2 years ago, I purchased a new laptop. I think it’s a Lenovo?

In my ideal world, I’d be able to hop on my laptop at any time, write a little, or browse, or whatever, and move on. Update this site on the go. Work on posts a few minutes here, a few minutes there. Browse other blogs. But with my current laptop? Not happening! Despite the fact that I have pop-ups blocked, and antivirus software, etc., it’s a constant barrage of video pop-ups, pop-out adds, sidebars that won’t go away. And don’t get me started on the updates! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve turned on my computer to do something really quick, only to have it immediately go into reboot mode to install 11,000 updates (not kidding, that was the number the last time). You can’t exit, and try as I might, I can’t figure out how to stop the auto-updating.

So, instead of being productive on my laptop, I spend all of my time watching it install updates, searching for that hidden video that is playing, closing out window after window, and trying to get around the add side-bar so I can read whatever I’m looking at. I’ve tried researching online for help, but I either can’t find what I’m looking for, or the answer ends up being $200 software. The laptop only cost me $300! And I can’t help fearing that I have a virus. Not wanting to pass it along, or give someone access to personal information, I’m leery about doing things like online banking, updating the blog, etc.

I rarely use my laptop anymore. Instead I find myself checking things during my lunch break, or staying after work to work on things. It needs to stop! But I can’t really justify going out and spending $1,000 on a new laptop. So, I’ve been looking into an iPad.

Most of what I do anymore is web-based. I think an iPad would fit most of my day-to-day needs. They sell keyboards now, so I wouldn’t have to rely on the virtual keyboard. The small size would take some getting used to, but it would also make it more portable. They have word processing Apps, so I wouldn’t have to worry about not being able to create documents.

In reality, it’s a want, not a need. Although, it would make things easier, and increase my productivity. Eventually, I would like to make some money off this site. In which case, this purchase could end up paying for itself. But that’s probably a little ways out.

At the same time, I’m not one to say that we shouldn’t occasionally give in to our wants. So long as they are well though out, and budgeted for, I don’t see the issue. Sure, I could be using that money to get myself out of debt. But right now, I only have a student loan (~$7,000) and my mortgage. It isn’t as though I’m drowning in debt.

So, I’m thinking it through. I’d like to make sure I’m making the right decision, and not rushing into something out of frustration.

What do you think? Will an iPad work for me? Any suggestions?

– Cindy W.


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